Yesterday’s Therapy and Knowing My Path

At this point, it is no secret that I see a therapist. I have shared this before and I am not ashamed. I started seeing her at the end of last year to help me with some personal characteristics, my anxiety and anger as well as help me through some difficult times. Although things are going much better in my life I still try to see her weekly, to help with my anxiety and help keep me focused on how to get more out of my life. Yesterday was an exceptional day.

Lately things have been going really well in my life, but occasionally things come up that are hard to not focus on and anxiety can skyrocket. There was something I had had on my mind lately I was not too sure how to approach it. in my mind, it was a big deal and a huge hurdle. I was not too sure how to get past it and I needed help. My therapist didn’t even bat an eye. She helped me see this from a different point of view and took all of the “urgency” out of the problem. In reality, it was not a problem at all, and just something I had built up in my head. It is so refreshing to be able to speak to someone who helps me through this and teaches me how to view things in life differently. it truly is a game changer.

After my therapist and myself had talked about my life, marriage, work, and kids, the session was pretty much over. However, we went a little long, as we got caught up in conversation. She asked me about school and how it was going and I shared how exciting I was finding it. I have been doing really well in both of my classes and have been finding the content interesting. The hard part of doing my classes online, is that I do not get to engage in conversation as often with people about the content, but with her I could! We talked a few of the topics I had enjoyed and I was just finding it so interesting, especially when she shared info about her experiences working with people in such situations.  Through this conversation, I felt more at ease with my decision to go back to school and go after this different career. I not only enjoyed my conversation, I loved it. I loved the topic and hearing her discuss how she has worked with people. I wish I had done this earlier in life… but its never too late to go after what you want!

What value do you get out of therapy? I would love to hear some stories from others and what value you see, so if you would like, please share below!

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School is Underway and My Schedule is Crazy!

I am finishing up my 2nd week of school and I have to say, life has gotten CRAZY! The first week of school, I was only attending one class (and by attending it is all online). This was a good entry for me as I was working on getting all of my classwork done while I also kept up with my job, and also making time for my kids at home. For this first week, I was not able to attend the gym as I still was not too sure how to balance my life.

This week, I unfortunately received an email from my second professor that my other class, Abnormal Psychology, had already started and I missed my first assignment. How could this be? I have been logging in weekly to check for updates as well as monitoring my email and I saw nothing… oh well. I was not dropped and I missed my first assignment (which was an introduction of myself) and missed out on 10 points. I should have been better about checking or perhaps sent out a n email to inquire when the class actually began. I have already started the homework for this week, and I was not dropped, so I should be fine. This was in line with the rest of my week however, as it was just crazy and hectic.

Wanting to start getting a better routine and schedule together, I opted to start going back to the gym this week as well, as I needed an outlet for stress release. This means either my mornings or late evenings are spent at the gym, the core of my day is at the office, and then at night I come home to spend time with my kids, put them to bed and then either do homework or go to the gym (if I had not gone in the morning). This doesn’t include time for me to go to therapy, chiropractor, or time for leisurely activities such as reading or watching some TV to relax, or time to deal with personal issues. As class picks up, I am sure I will have some weeks where I am overloaded and extremely busy and my anxiety soars through the roof. However, I am determined to get myself into a better routine and it will make it all easier. I just have to keep reminding myself why I am doing this 🙂 !

What are some of your methods when you dont feel you have time to breathe? Share your tips and tricks below, or let me know how crazy your schedule is!

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Anxiety, Daily Life Stress and Moving Forward

About 12 years ago, was finishing up my summer school courses that were needed to graduate. During my finals week, I started at working at one of the best companies in the world. I had gone from a High School and College athlete, to a full time student and restaurant worker, to being a full time employee at a major company. I was scared, I was excited, I was happy and I was sad. Every emotion you could have I felt as I had no idea what to expect of the rest of my life.

For a year prior to this, I had started planning how I was going to propose to my girlfriend who I had been with for 4.5 years at this point. We started dating in High School and even did our first year of college as a long distance relationship. I was madly in love with this woman, and at the time, it was the only thing stable in my life I could count on, and I was about to kick it into gear by proposing to her.

I had planned to propose to her in December when we would be on vacation together. I had the ring and her Dad’s approval. I also now had a safe/secure job in the business world: I had everything I had ever “wanted,” right? It was at this time, I started to get sick. My stomach was always upset, my palms always seemed sweaty. I had these panic attacks and could not breath, I did not know what was going on with me. It was not until speaking with my doctor that I determined what was wrong: I was suffering from anxiety. I could write an entire blog post on Anxiety and what it is, but that has been done by countless others (feel free to contact me, and I will be happy to discuss if you like). It was at this time I went on Zoloft and from there planned to learn how to control my anxiety.

I stayed on Zoloft for a couple years but ultimately went off as I learned to cope and deal with the anxiety (not to mention my life was in a fairly good routine, so it was much easier to manage. That is until this last December when some other life changes happened (this is a future blog topic, but not one I am ready to discuss).

Over the last 12 years I have dealt with daily stressors of my job and my life. I have had marital spats, kids, job changes and even moved. I have been sick, and had some medical issues (one of which was an appendectomy) Last year we sold out house, moved in with my in-laws for a few months while searching for a house and then purchased a new house. Handling my stress was difficult. That was until December when things made another big change and created my journey back to Zoloft. Along with Zoloft, I have done many things to really keep my stress under control:

  1. Meditate (I use the Headspace app and it is amazing!)
  2. Yoga
  3. Going to the gym
  4. Going on  a walk
  5. Going on a bike ride
  6. Play with my kids
  7. Spending time with friends/family
  8. Therapy

I would normally add sex to this list as that has always been my best stress release, but right now (see some of the issues listed above including medical). But there is a reason I share all of this:

My journey to changing my career has been a very long one. As I have mentioned in my previous posts, I have gone done my current career path for a reason, but its time to change. Anxiety has been difficult but I am learning to deal with it better. Daily life stresses around my job, family and life are tough, but I am dealing with those too. If you want something, you have to go and get it. And right now, I want to make my life better for myself and those around me. I want to be happy and satisfied. Anxiety will always be there in one way or another, but I cannot hide from it, I have to push forward.

Leave a comment below if you have experienced Anxiety or what your favorite way to deal with stress is.

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