Taking My Daughter to School

This post will not be long, but it is something I wanted to share/brag about:

Today I dropped my daughter off at school. it was not big, there was no special occasion. But because of the hours of her school and the time I go to work, my wife usually just drops her off. However today I needed to drop her off, and for whatever reason it was fun. She was excited to she me her classroom and have me drop her off. She didnt cry, but she was sure to give me a hug, kiss and high five (her trifecta of good-byes) before I left. I even snuck in a little “I Love you” in sign language which she happily returned.

My kids are amazing, and for such a “small” thing to do, it brought me a lot of joy and happiness. Sometimes you have to really enjoy the small things in life to truly enjoy life as a whole.

Testing My Patience

Today is just one of those days. I am sitting on my couch, tired, frustrated and exhausted. I am nearly in tears today. We all have those days, but I guess the true question is: how do we respond to those days.

Nothing out of the ordinary happened today. Nobody I know was hurt in any way. I didn’t lose my job or car. I have plenty of food on the table and in the fridge and my kids are happy and healthy. So why am I so upset? My guess, is that life is just tiring sometimes.

It is no secret I have a lot going on in my life. I am dealing with marriage problems (more on that at another time), I am super busy at work, I have a big vacation coming up, I am going back to school soon, and I have 2 kids under the age of 5. Life. Is. Crazy.

Today I came home from work, already in a bad mood. Work is crazy busy as my co-worker recently left the company, dumping all of his work on me. All of this right as we were undertaking a big change to our organization AND prepping for a big conference next week, in which I have to give a presentation. Outside of work there is a lot going on too, as personal problems aside, I am preparing to start school as well as get ready for a week long family vacation (which adds stress at work because I need to ensure all of my work is completed so I do not have to work while I am gone). So when I came home from work, I was just not ready to parent and adult.

To be honest, I lost my patience tonight. My kids tested me over and over, and I finally lost my patience. Its not their fault. They do not mean to press my buttons. But today it just happened. In reality, they were just being themselves: wild and crazy kids, acting their age (my daughter turns 5 in September and my son turns 3 at the end of July). But today wasn’t the day for that. They were eating dinner when I came home… well they were sitting at the table watching TV talking and playing, while not eating. I fought with them, I begged and pleaded… I even resorted to bribing them to eat. My daughter ultimately ate, but my son did not. He refused to eat very much, stating that he wasn’t hungry… but I know better. I know he is just trying to fight with me until I give in and give him something else. But I do not play that game. So tonight after he was in bed and he was crying for more food, I had to be firm with him. Is it too much for an almost 3 year old? Perhaps. But by no means was my son starving, and he did eat SOME food… just not a lot. He was just trying to get his way, and I just refuse to be the parent that lets their kids get away with everything.

Tonight I am just exhausted. I did not want to parent or adult, I just wanted to relax and meditate. Life has been particularly trying these last few months, but I am still focused on bettering myself and finding the positive. Some days are harder than others, but we are human, right? Tomorrow is a new day and I can focus on being better.

Share some of your stories or best practices when you are having a day that is trying your patience as well. Whether its the kids, your job, your significant other, or just life in general.

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A Week with No Kids

I am a father of two. I have a 4 year old girl and a 2 year old boy. They are the light of my life and I love everything about them. I love their personalities, their little voices and their compassion. I love them when they are happy, and I love them when they are sad. Both of my kids are absolutely wonderful humans and I miss them when they are not around… most of the time.

Do not get me wrong, I love my children more than life itself and I would do anything for them. And I truly do miss them when I do not get to be around them. However, sometimes it is nice to have a break. I have never been one to think that, but as they get older and our lives get more and more hectic, I see the need for some alone time. And what it took to discover that, was actual alone time.

This week, my parents took the kids to their home out of state and my wife and I had the week off. Missing my kids is a given, but at the same time it has been kind of nice at time. Normally my routine has me coming home from work, playing with the kids, fighting with them to eat dinner, getting them in the bath, and dressed and teeth brushed, reading them a few books and then putting them in bed and laying with them a bit. When all is said and done, I am usually not able to change my clothes and relax until close to 8:30 at night. This week? This week, I am able to come home, and sit on the couch and unwind for a bit. Eat dinner when I want and not argue with anyone over what food to eat. Instead of waking up to get in my workout before anyone is awake, I can sleep in and then work out at night.

Sleeping in! That is another thing. When you have kids, you never know what time you are going to wake up. The kids could sleep till 8 or they could be up at 5:30. But either way, I have to get up early to work out just in case they also get up early. But now I can sleep in a little longer and relax and just not have to parent.

Do not get me wrong, I love so much about parenting, but it is hard. Not that I would EVER leave my kids, but I see why some people do: they are tired and stressed and can’t handle it, so they run from their problems. But is parenting really a problem? Is life really a problem? As Rocky balboa said (in one of my favorite quotes) “The world aint all sunshine and rainbows..” Life i shard and will keep you on your toes, but you can’t run away from it… and not that i ever would. But what I have learned is that you need time to recuperate.  It doesn’t have to be a week, but a weekend every now and then, or a night with the boys/girls: something to let you have some “you” time and refresh.

AS much as I have missed my kids this week, I think it was a week like this to really help me realize how important these breaks are. I would much rather see my kids every day than not, but the occasional weekend or day off I think is best for everyone.

Let me know your thoughts in the comments below.

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